a short two weeks on the beautiful islands of Kauai and Oahu.
July 28, 2017.
this trip this time around was to heal something within me that was longing to be restored. before coming, I didn't know what this was specifically- there was just a constant fire within me, waiting to be unraveled and faced. I knew this time was for me to peel more layers, to shed more of the film that is the veil of fear and tension. to step into my authenticity, to rediscover the parts of myself that I was afraid to see, the darkness that has to be faced in order to see more of the light. the first day here, I faced this in the most unexpected ways: rather than what I envisioned for myself as a solo, spiritual journey I was reminded to loosen up and to simply be. rather than diving too deep and trying too hard to confront these things, letting them come at the timing they want and need to come. I was reminded that I cannot rush my healing, I cannot always be forcing the removal of the film, of the layers. so through gentle living and simple being, I am (re)discovering the beauty of my truth. I am (re)learning to live in and through each moment. through the tears of sweet surrender, through the laughter shared amongst friends, through the kindness of strangers, through dancing with the waves, through the breathtaking grounds of mother nature. over and over again, I am being reminded of the gift and the miracle of being human. I am allowing myself to be just as much human as I am spirit. I was holding too close to me the fear of losing touch with spirit, but I am recognizing that I can never lose this; just as the sun rises and sets, spirit has its time to illuminate fully and then rest in being. and just as the sun is always present, although sometimes hidden behind the clouds in the sky, or behind the rainstorm - spirit does not cease to exist. all of me, all of you, of us, is whole. is holy. I am (re)learning to be more forgiving to myself, to relax a bit more, to feel more and think less, to surrender. aloha vibes are real man, and this life is such a blessing. grateful for it all.
August 4, 2017.
as always, traveling with no plan, no expectations. nothing booked- simply carrying with me an open heart and the simple desire to surf, see friends, and meet people. this trip has taught me so much in the most unimaginable ways. I am filled with love and gratitude, from all of the friends and strangers who give and give, seeking nothing in return. I am humbled by the immense strength yet gentle love of mother nature. I am reminded of the importance of the inner child within, from the party waves shared, to the light and laughs amongst new and old souls. I am whole; finding myself in everyone I meet- in each conversation, in each smile.. all a reflection and all a teaching. I am finding freedom; running barefoot and wild through the forests, unearthing the forgiveness I seek for myself. I feel the flow of the universe as I trust in all that is meant, all that is written: I am slowly finding all of the answers as I surrender into each question. jah live~ thank you brothers and sisters for the empowerment, inspiration and all the love. thank you life for this beautiful human experience. infinite love and gratitude.